Fruitful Defeat

Lucky number 2 for final round

LUCKY number 81 for preliminary round

my experience was priceless. I met knew friends, I gain experience and I enjoyed every moment of it. and when it come to the end, it doesn't matter if I win or lose, it's how I cherish every moment of it. True enough that, everyone wants to win and I don't deny the fact I wanted to win too, but well, at the end, you earned more than what you think you would win. You earned FRIENDSHIP, COURAGE, FAITH, EXPERIENCE and most important of all SPORTSMANSHIP. It was truly a great experience. 

The most wonderful thing that happened was after my preliminary round's performance, 2 of the audience came to me and said : " I love you voice!!! all the best " then in Facebook, an anonymous person inbox me saying : " you have a really good voice!!! " but what makes me moved the most was in finals. After final, while I was waiting for my car, a guy from Lodge international approach me and said : 

" Are you Fabian Chua? Contestant number 2? the one who sang I will always love you? " 

I answered : "ya~ " 

and he said : " I think you should have won, I mean seriously!! you voice is like Adele's and it rocks!! you are really good!!! but well, it's money politics so ya~ I really hope you can join next year. Are you? " 

I answered : " No, I will be overage by then! "

him : " Ow, it's sad then cause you were really great and I really really like you voice!! you should really win that!!! "

me : " *blushing* haha~ well, thank you but I enjoyed my performance! =D "

him : " well, see you soon! hope to see you perform anywhere, any time soon ^^ "

me : " Bye!!! alright~ "

I was blessed because God sent me an angel when I was a little depress. Before I came out and waited for the transport, I asked God why? Why is this unfair? and immediately God send me an answer. I was saying to myself : " Whitney Houston would be crying watching it in heaven. " but the answer I got was, "Indeed she's crying, but crying to see a tribute done wonderfully by a talented young man, not because she's sad but because she's happy! " This is what I get from my thoughts while thinking. And I believe that! 

From this competition I met alot of new friends. Each talented in their own way ^^ 

I really wanna thank God for giving me this opportunity and learn that there's something more than winning. and that's even more priceless than anything in the world!! ^^

** Add ons : Thank you to Alexander Chong for giving me such great encouragement. He said : " It's ok you got position 12 cause New Direction [ gLee ] got position 12 as well in season 2 final episode." It was such another great comfort for me. Thank you, Alex. 

Doubts

Alot of things crossed my mind recently, i guess what people say 

about from6 is true. form6 makes you think alot. your future~ your dreams~ your desire~ your happiness~ and so much more~ everytime i heard high school musical songs through my ipod makes me think of that perfect world where friends would stick together, have fun, enjoying everyday~ isn't that wonderful. I know it is not possible but it just seems too real~ i mean you don't have to worry about your homework, your everyday routines~ your worries just seems to be so free~ you just enjoy your time with your friends~ and i want that. life now is so hectic especially with my tight schedule.. captain of my sports team, organising so many games and events, choir competition is up, sells are on~ and etc.. i just wish time can stop like one week and get me off this city, send me to a countryside and i only have my phone, ipod, and homework with me~ where i get to feel the breeze of the wind that touches my face gently, the calm water of the water hitting the seaside/shore, birds singing happily with the rustling sound of the trees' leaves and the nature's beauty~ where i get to finish and organise all my work.. but guess what?? *POOOFFF* once your finish that, more work is up! well, all i can say is~ i will live my life to the fullest and finally do what i want~

i am searching for my happiness~ everyday i try to motivate myself but sometimes i just cant help it~ situations that put me into my deepest worries and sadness~ i need God's guidance. i pray to Him every night before i sleep. just to get that spirit, calmness, guidance, strength, wisdom, protection to move on to my next day. and i know He heard every cries of mine as well as His other sons and daughters~ i am learning how to be patient, awaiting that moment of NO BOUNDARIES~ 

i seriously wanna just relax. it's  just so many work needed to be done. everyone is depending on me and they have no idea what am i going through. yes~ in class or in front of my friends i show how jolly or happy i am but deep inside i am tired. tired of how the world is~ i just dont feel like here. i was suppose to be born at some other place but i know God has bigger plans for me. and i aint ready to give up for my life, and dreams~ 

one thing i have to say to Dear Lord is thank you for giving me such blessed friends~ they play an important part in my life and what i can say is, i appreciate them and i love them~ without them i would not have today~ without them, i wouldnt be this strong~ they are what makes me strive each day of my life~ 

what our late Steve Jobs said was right. i really wanna do what i want.. but courage takes up a whole big part and i just aint brave enough. furthermore, confidence is also a factor. and i know, it's hard to get that. on my appearance, i look confidence but that's what i look in front of my friends~ actually i really have no confidence in pursueing my dreams. if i were to pursue i might not be where i am right now~ and there's so much factor i need to consider.. leaving behind so many things and most importantly, leaving as the only child which my parents will depend on me in the future. dreams or family? my teacher told me : "you are living for your dreams not your parent, they will go away one day and when that day comes you will live in emptiness knowing how much you have missed and regret for not achieving your dreams " another teacher told me : "it's not good to just go for your dreams, your parenst have nutured your since little and they hope you would do the same." DILEMMA!!! but call me selfish as you want, cause i am studying for my future but mostly for my parents satisfaction =(  i will go for my dreams, and still be a good son. 

i will pursue my dreams before i turn 25. 

i made that promise to myself. 

now, i leave it to the mighty ALL God~ Amen~ ^^

More desperate~

 when the arrival of 2012 comes near, the more i have the urge to go for my dreams~ broadway is my dream and i really wanna go for it~ sometimes i just wanna leave everything behind here and take all the money that i have and go for that dreams. but to think back it is really selfish~ but sometimes i feel like if i am not going to do it then when will i be able to do it?

i mean singing is what i wanna do~ and perhaps i am scared of losing if i join a competition, on the other hand i will know my standards as well~ but i just wanna have that one shot~ be on the centre stage and sing~ although i know i will be nervous and hit the wrong key or off pitch at some part but i sang in a competition before and it was awesome~

I dunno about others but i am dying see-ing ppl getting famous day by day and i am here doing nothing~ seeing ppl younger than me get the chance to be a star and go to hollywood, attend red carpet, sing on MTV stage and so many more~ sigh~ i just wanna perform!!! >.<

and so i know that broadway is what i want~ but i am scared i will give up suddenly as one of my bad habits is give up on something easily or get fed up of it easily~ but for now, i know i will do anything it takes to go there~ but education will comes first and through educations, it will come true~ broadway is there forever, and i will achieve it by 25 years old (if possible), if not 30years old!!! 

HERE I COME BROADWAY~ I WILL BE THE NEXT SENSATION!!! ^^

New Year!!!

It's been ages since i updated my blog. busy schedules, homeworks, projects, assignments, experiments, tuitions, co-curricular activities and etc just pile up at one go~ all of the event me and my friends went to was not updated~ no worries it'll be updated soon!!! hehe~ well, new year means new resolutions!!
1. Sing better!
2. Study hard!
3. Appreciate all my family and friends!
4. Mange my time between academic and curricular activities!
5. eat more food~
6. listen to more music

lazy list all leh~ sigh~ nvm~ all i wanna do is wish all of my friends a HAPPY DRAGON NEW YEAR!!!! ^^

Bug catching to City dwellers~

Reservoir Park - Bug catching EPIC fail~ sigh..

Malaysian Bear Grylls in action~ [ Nigel Tay ]

Both Ah Beng~  

Obviously I am heavier!!!!! duh~

Breakfast - suggested by Joel. Laksa and an extremely large jug of Teh C peng [rm6 per jug ]

On the way to Hilton to use their toilet and have a rest in their lobby~ hehe~ 

Rock climber?? nah~ Wall climber~ 

Ape man~ and I thought they were extinct

Sampan - from riverside to opposite bank. [ Dewan Undangan Negeri ] rm0.50 only!!

~ Lonely Emo ~ 

Some tower at D.U.N.

From left - Bernard, me, Kee Fung, Nigel [ yellow shirt ], Dolly [ bespectacled girl ], Lee Woon, Sin Ting, Stella, Louisa

Stairway of the tower - spiraling down~

Waiting for sampan~ >.<

 On the way to Life Cafe for a break after a long touring around the city~ 

From left - Kee Fung, Dolly, Sin Ting, Lee Woon, Stella, Louisa, Bernard, Nigel, me, Ka How, Joel

A photograph at some street. it's like a photo on an old street~ sweet memories~ 

THE END~

Trip to INFINITY!

Welcome to Jong's Crocodile Farm~  Let the adventure begin~ the following pictures is not in sequence to when we visit them~ It is not arrange to the order of which animal we saw first~ 

imagine your head in that mouth~ OMG!! 0.0

Peacock - I guess it doesn't feel like showing off its tail after all shy much!!

The Eagle - praying for food?? hmm~ 

Sun Bear - aww~ ain't it cute~ 

Left bear: Hey, look ppl are looking at us. do something bear~
Right bear: I am~ saying "hi" using my feet~ 

Otter - One of the cutest animal we saw. Flecia was looking into her bag and this little cute thing thought she was gonna get food and starting giving cuddly eyes and making pity voice.

Sang Kancil - the smart creature who loves to cheat the crocs. and yet it is stuck here~ sigh~ 

EPIC!!

Some Monkey - Flecia was so excited to see this little dude.

Flecia's baby 

Resting

Some bird [ Casuari, I guess ] - Preettyyy bird!!!!!

Porcupine - Shy yet DEADLY~  

Labi - it's like heaven's light on it

Some bird - it ain't afraid of ppl standing close!

Four-legged-snake [ komodo? ] - seems a lot smaller compared to those in tv 

Tailess Crocodile - there is such crocodile.. OMG~ I wonder how it balance? hmm~ 

The Owl - The smart ass of the forest / jungle. I think it forgot its book today~

Crocodilessss - What happens if you falls in?? well, meal time for the crocs~

A sloth [ I think ] - sleepy head! 

Swan - the ugly duckling that turned into a SWAN~ nah~ it's a goose!!

Some bird - posing for the camera~ 

Iguana - It did not moved since the time we walked in until we walked out~ steady bro~ 

that's not all of the animals~ some are not taken and some are of course not been posted here [ eg. phyton etc etc ] but well, most of them are here~ ^^

End of our ANIMALIA journey~